What’s most important to you right now? 

Trying to find a routine even though we’re stuck inside all the time. There are certain things we do every week. 
Friday night is RuPaul. Having certain things throughout the week to look forward to. Otherwise I will not want to wake up. 

What was most important to you before you had to social distance? 

I was working on a show. I was taking a solo cabaret class to work on a solo show, and I was really pushing forward and working really hard on it. This happened and it completely drained me of my creativity/artistic side. I was trying to make steps in my career as a singer/actor. 

What’s the first thing you’ll do when this is over? 

Hug my friends! I am a very physical touch person. I’m an extrovert. I’m losing my mind. I saw one of my neighbors on the sidewalk and immediately started crying, so I’m going to be a big mess when we’re out of this. I just want to hold my friends. 

What are you doing to pass the time? 

Mostly Netflix bingeing, reading Harry Potter, trying to make myself record covers. I’m trying to fill the artistic void. Hanging out with my roommate, reading, and watching TV. 

What makes you happy right now?

Having a face-to-face connection, even if it’s through FaveTime or Zoom. Seeing peoples faces even though we can’t physically be with each other is what’s making me happy right now. 

What would you tell yourself two months ago with the knowledge you have today? 

Even if someone were to tell me what happened, I don’t know that I would believe them. There’s no real preparation for this kind of thing. Cling to the people that you’re able to be yourself in front of the most. And go to that cabaret even though you’re broke! 

Even when you think you know yourself you don’t. Spending all this time with myself alone is really enlightening me to the things I find are really important. For me it’s connection. At first, moving to New York, I was like, I’m going to be focused on my career, but being in quarantine, I still believe that art is hand in hand with community. Make time. There’s a lot of time in the day and it’s up to you to set it aside for something that you think should be important. 

Lillian-New York City

DAY 51